I said something to the extent a few years back that if I wasn’t pregnant by the time I was 30 I was going to go crazy, and hoped that I wasn’t as old as my parents when they had me and my brother ( my mom was 31 with Tyler and 39 with me). Well, it turns out that I’m following in her footsteps with each day that passes, and I’m even on my 2nd husband and everything. Oh boy, did I just say that? Just chalk that up to my craziness since I’m turning 30 in a month.
Well, I’m doing pretty well with that now. Not so much in January though. After my laparoscopy, I went almost a full week thinking the surgery was successful. The dr. didn’t speak to me or Tyler when I was in recovery and all the nurses said was that they cut out an awful amount of scar tissue so the pain I was in was to be expected. That’s it. It wasn’t until mid the next week when Tyler called the doctor because my pain meds weren’t doing their job, did he spill the beans that both my tubes were still blocked and there was nothing he could do.
WTH?
Okay, maybe there was a miscommunication or something. Maybe I didn’t hear him right? I waited until I went in for my post op to clear everything up and it was then he told me that what I thought was my good tube was completely blocked, and the left one was so damaged with scar tissue that even though he was able to get dye through it a little, most likely it will scar right back up and adhere itself to something. So basically, he told me the only option we have is to do in-vitro. And “By the way, that will cost you $15,000. The nurses have a packet for you at the front desk”.
Are you kidding me? What a seriously sick joke.
I was devastated. After I had a good long cry to Tyler and my mom on the way home, I was feeling much better. I keep feeling more optimistic about our situation and life in general as the days pass. Tyler told me the other day how proud of me he is, and that I keep blossoming as my talents keep getting nurtured. It really is thanks to him and his unconditional love and support that gets me through this and makes me want to be a better person. I finally have the confidence to pursue the things that interest me and Heavenly Father has given me my much needed time to grow and learn before becoming a parent. I’ve always been trusting in Him that things will fall into place eventually, and heck…look how far I’ve come in just the last few years. I really am a new person, and it’s an amazing feeling. I’m excited about where life is taking us and am so grateful for the opportunity Tyler and I have had to spend one-on-one time together and to get our travels out of our system. I don’t think that itch will ever be completely scratched until we’ve traveled to every country, but we’re slowing checking things off our bucket list, and we are blessed we are to be able to make those dreams reality.
Last night I met a new friend who went through in-vitro to get their son, now 18 months old, and it made me feel so much better. It worked on the first try and the dr./clinic is the same one that I have been researching and overall she had a wonderful experience. Looks like their prices have gone up about a grand since she went through the process, but overall significantly less than what I was quoted. Thank goodness.
So, we’ll see how this next year goes and hopefully by the time we’re ready to move forward, we’ll be REALLY ready. Lots of prayers and good thoughts our way please!
by Summer
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